Overwhelmingly Busy...

Wow, life has been incredibly busy. I guess I just put way too many things on my plate. Man, I haven't updated in a while. I need to catch up. I really don't know why I keep up with this stupid piece of shit called live journal. It just gives people reason's to be more dramatic then usual. Anyways, Fourth of July was fun. Michael and I saw fireworks the day before Fourth of July. We went to Addison to see their firework show and then we sat in traffic for almost two hours trying to get out of Addison. Ya, I live 10 minutes away from where we were. It was ridiculous! Fourth of July I had a bunch of friends over and I cooked for them. I made fried chicken and steak. I love cooking for my friends. I think Fourth of July is one of my favorite holiday's. God Bless the USA. July 5th I had my MaryKay business debut. It was very succesful. I made $300 in one night. I think this is going to be a good thing. I really am enjoying doing Mary Kay. I just love everything about the company and I love all the people I have met. I've met some pretty inspiring women. I started my new job as a CAD technician at Halff Associates July 6. I was having my doubts my first week. But now i'm into my second week and everything is going great. I've had to learn a whole new design program which made me want to re-think taking the job but I took a leap of faith. I guess when you know AutoCAD you can learn any design program. Now i'm really comfortable at my job. I still have to ask a lot of questions but my boss told me I should be up to speed in about 3 months. I really like my boss and all the guys I work with. Ya, I'm the only girl there besides the administrative assistant. I like being the only girl. Plus, I hate working with all women. Too much damn drama. I love my cubicle! It's a big cubicle. I'm starting to bring some picture frames in and personal stuff. I love it. It's starting to look like home. It's funny because my cubicle is so girlie. My cubicle sticks out like a sore thumb in an engineering firm. I'm still at Express. I hate it. I should of never gotten personal with one manager in particular. I love her but she's just too damn dramatic. So, I work three jobs. One, my CAD job, is full time. MaryKay and Express is part time. I also go to school full time. Occasionally I have time to eat, sleep, or shit. O ya, and I'm trying to maintain a relationship with a boy. That's been hard. Michael and I have been fighting a lot about my work. He thinks I work too much. I guess I do work too much. I've always known that's how my life would be. When someone asked me were I saw myself in 5 years. I always thought I would be married to my work. I wish Michael would understand my work ethic but at the same time I understand why he gets mad. I'm always on a conference call when I'm with him. And I always have my day planner in front of me at dinner and sometimes I have to take calls during dinner. Poor Michael but I have to work. I guess I have my priority in my work than in my relationship. I know that's harsh but I haven't had a reason to invest a whole lot of time into this relationship. I hope I find that someone who makes me want to invest time with them. Or maybe I'm just not at that point in my relationship with Michael. We've only been together a couple of months. Last night Michael and I were laying in bed and we were talking. I was falling asleep a lot of the time but I was still trying to talk to him. Ya, he told me he loved me last night. I really didn't know what to say to that. All I know is that that wasn't something I could say back. I mean I love Michael in the sence he's been such a close friend for so many years but I'm not in love with him. I kind of feel bad because I don't love him back. I guess i'm just an unemotional person. I don't fall easily. But when I do fall in love, I fall hard. Or maybe love for Melanie is a one time opportunity. That would be my luck. I can accept that. The love I had for that person could last me a life time. So Michael's mom got a 6 week old black lab. Michael wanted to keep it and his mom let him. Ya, so I had a black lab in my apartment for a couple of days. We then decided we couldn't keep her and gave her back to his mom. She was just too rough with Bentley and too loud. Thank God, Michael had enough sence to not keep her. I might get him smaller dog for Christmas or just a gift in general. I'm thinking about getting Micahel a pug or something. We'll see. I have to wait till I start getting paid at my CAD job. Then I can afford anything. Since the lab went back to Michael's mom's Bentley has been so well behaved. I think he appreciates things now. Bentley was having a rough time with the puppy. She was a lot bigger than Bentley. My parents were suppose to come into town this week but they had to change their plans because of their dog. I was so disappointed. I really wanted to see my mom and day. I haven't seen them in a couple of months. O well, I'll see them in September or so. Anyways, i'm done.